Reception and Pondering – The Annunciation of Our Lord

This is part one of a short series on the Joyful Mysteries of the Rosary as a guide for discernment. The introduction and “index” are here. The next mystery, The Visitation, is here.

The Annunciation of Our Lord

 


This first stage of discernment, corresponding to The Annunciation, we might refer to as reception and pondering. We receive a message that we’re “pretty sure” is from the Lord, give our assent to God’s intervention, then are left to ponder what just happened.

  • Gabriel appears to Mary at an unexpected time and place. This is Nazareth, after all, in Galilee. A place of which Nathaniel asks “Can anything good come out of Nazareth?” As far as we know, Mary wasn’t banging on God’s door looking for answers. There’s ancient tradition that hold Mary was devoted to service in the Temple, but for now, at least, the angel Gabriel “was sent from God to a town of Galilee called Nazareth.”
  • When the Angel arrives, he finds Mary’s heart well prepared to receive the message he bears. He is able to greet her as “favored one,” and to repeat, in case she wasn’t sure, or was afraid, “you have found favor with God.”
  • The message of the Lord is specific, but it is not exactly laid out step by step. It is a bit unsettling. It requires faith to receive. Parts of it need to be pondered.

The messenger (that’s what angel means) of the Lord appears to us, wherever we are. Occasionally, the messenger is obviously miraculous or supernatural, perhaps an angel visibly present, or a locution. Many times the message comes to us through a “regular ‘ole person,” but there’s something within our spirit that recognizes “this is a message from the Lord.”

There’s something about Gabriel, too. He doesn’t explain himself at all. There’s no “hey Mary, don’t worry, I’m one of the good Angels, you can trust me. See, look, I have a halo, not horns.” It’s simply “Hail, favored one, the Lord is with you.”

Sometimes, we are called to be a messenger, an angel of the lord (but not “The Angel Clarine”, just “a messenger”). When we’re so called, our response should be the same as Gabriel. Go to the person where they are (don’t wait for a convenient time or place), greet them in the name of the Lord, deliver the message, and skedaddle. Don’t stick around to see what they do next, don’t try to explain what you think is going on, and don’t try to add anything to what you’ve received to pass on.

Usually, this message of the Lord, unless it is a call to repentance, comes to a heart that is prepared. Did this great idea come at 2AM after killing off three 30-packs and a bottle of fireball? Good chance it’s my great idea. Am I in a state of grace? Have I been to confession recently? Did it come during adoration? Odds are higher it might be God’s great idea. On the other hand, God speaks of God’s own free will, and comes to us where we are, so hold this idea gently.

What about the message itself? Is the message one of joy and hope, or one of fear? Consistently, even when the message is dire, the first words out of an Angel’s mouth are “fear not.” Our enemy condescends to whisper sour nothings of fear and doubt in our ears, but our God consistently speaks of faith, hope, and charity. Gabriel’s message was super clear; “you will conceive… bear a son.. name him Jesus… he will be Son of the Most High… called holy – the Son of God” Where Mary had innocent questions “um… but I’m a virgin…” the angel pointed to the power of God, and offered the example of God’s faithfulness and power (Elizabeth’s conception at an advanced age).

There’s plenty left unsaid, lots of unanswered questions we might wonder why she didn’t ask (e.g. what should I tell Joseph?). Ultimately, however, the first stage, this stage of reception and pondering, is about trust. The word of the Lord comes to us. We believe it’s the word of the Lord. Are we willing to submit our will? Will we trust God, knowing that we don’t understand everything, and we have plenty to ponder, but without using that pondering as an excuse to delay giving our trust and assent?


The Joyful Mysteries – A guide for discernment

I genuinely love the rosary, though you’d not necessarily know that by my (lack of) faithful consistency in carving out time from my schedule to pray it daily. My newfound freedom of schedule is certainly helping me get back on track there. One of the things I love most about praying the rosary is when a lightbulb goes off that makes this devotion super practical and relevant. The rosary is not just a good way to meditate upon the life of Christ (although, it is!).

I’ve recently grown to appreciate the joyful mysteries of the rosary as a pattern or guide for discernment.

So, let’s dive in on a short series looking at just that. Read more


Foolish self-esteem

“Let us contemplate, at first, that foolish self-esteem which pervades most of us. How proud we are of our little merits, our possessions, talents, and our family, and how ready we are to look down upon others! How anxious we are to equal our superiors in the stations of life, and to leave that station to which we really belong! And how often do we pride ourselves that our work is better than that of anybody else!” – St. John Vianney, Quinquagesima Sunday ~ The Enemies of Our Salvation

Guilty. It took two unplanned work separations (ever – both this year) to fully grasp the reality that I am, in fact, guilty of priding myself for little talents, and that my work is not just good, but better. I didn’t think I was prideful in this area, but.. yeah… let’s go ahead and rip off that band-aid.

In other news – looking for a job! Hoping to continue to work from home. Happy to work long hours, but highly value the flexibility to be available when and where I’m needed.

And… ordination to the Diaconate is just a week and a half away (Sept 7). Please pray for me, and my 18 brothers, as well as for those who hoped to be ordained that day, and will not receive that gift.


Totally Wrong About Sacrifice

I continue to desire to both learn how to grow in love, and then to actually do so. My spiritual director suggested I consider making an effort to offer up three small sacrifices each day with the intention of being recollected, and of asking for help to grow in this virtue. He suggested that even very small sacrifices such as skipping salt with my meal or leaving the radio off in the car might be helpful.

I struggled mightily.

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Giving Everything – 32nd Sunday, Year B

What does it mean to give everything, and why would we do that?

32nd Sunday of Ordinary Time, Cycle B
1 KGS 17:10-16PS 146:7, 8-9, 9-10HEB 9:24-28MK 12:38-44

The reading from Kings shows us a foreign widow who gives a prophet everything she set aside for herself and her son to eat. The letter to the Hebrews reminds us of our high priest, Jesus, who offers himself as a sacrifice. The gospel relates how a poor widow put her whole livelihood into the offering.

In each of these stories, someone offers everything.

What is our everything? Do the widows’ examples propose that we give everything to the church? That seems… extreme.

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